11 August 2012

kenyataan perasaan

haha...macam bangang je tajuk post ni
just nak share some thought of mine
masa trip ke Ho Chi Minh tu...
setiap malam kot...pergi night market sana
seyesly sangat penat...lagi-lagi bila melayan kerenah mumy yang suke menawar harga barang
in the end...kepenatan, kelaparan and sluggish
aku ajak acap (adik) duk kat tepi jalan tu
"biarkan aje mumy di kedai-kedai itu...hehe"

but then...a Vietnamese caught our attention
of course sebab dia rambut panjang...menarik perhatian aku itu, haha^^
sekali dia buka meja...susun-susun barang
then, people came towards him
curiosity got me...wondering why
ajak acap sekali tengok dia buat ape...


rupenye...dia ni penulis kaligrafi jalanan
and tulisan Vietnam ni sangat unique in such their own way
even orang local dia pon tak semua reti baca 





sangat besar kan berus dia...haha^^











inilah hasilnya...yang kelakarnya...
kelakar ke??  hehe...^^
bila dah siap kaligrafi ni...laki Vietnamese ni leh bangun
and bagi kaligrafi ni kat aku
dia cakap..."this is for you"
then dia cakap bahasa Vietnam...yang langsung aku tak paham pape
sambil tunjuk kertas ni kat aku 

and again...curiosity got me
aku cari orang Vietnam yang boleh cakap Melayu
minta dia translatekan ape yang laki rambut panjang tu tulis untuk aku
dia pon tak reti baca tulisan kaligrafi Vietnam....
 dia datang kat laki rambut panjang tu....bincang-bincang....=p
pastu dia cakap maksud tulisan ni
"Hati yang kosong, sedang mencari ketenangan yang jauh merentasi lautan".

at this point...rasa nak gelak pon ada
nak nangis pon ada
just imagine...i live 24 years
not once in my life...jumpa laki rambut panjang ni
we live in different country, different religious, different culture
we can't even communicate
but he knows exactly how i felt all this time

yang acap lak...leh lak tanya
"kak lang...hati kau kosong ke?? kenapa??"
haha...rasa nak lempang je dia time tu

funny...ada je kawan depan mata
tapi suddenly rasa tak reti nak cite problems kat dorang
bukan tak nak cite
dorang pon ada masalah masing-masing kan?
tak kan nak serabut dorang lagi ngan masalah aku
lagipon...not everyone really listen to what i'm saying
everytime nak cite...dorang mesti cite dulu
and i'm there to listen and expect to be helping out them
lagipon...rasa sangat malas nak bercerita
rasa sangat malas nak mengadu

rasa stress sangat-sangat
i felt like i'm getting worse
because i reached a point where i don't want to meet anyone
haha^^
pagi...duduk je rumah sebab housemates semua tak ada
then, malam...housemates balik...baru aku gi lab
haha...rasa sangat teruk kot
i keep myself SOCIALLY WITHDRAWAL
SOCIALLY ISOLATED
SOCIALLY ALIENATED
haha...but, don't worry
this is only temporarily
i hope so...0_o


gajah buatan Vietnam...hehe^^

i don't know why...
people always leave me behind
forgetting me
let it be my family, bestfriend and once my love
i don't expect to be love
to be care
to be adore
to be cherish
to be a cry shoulder
to be problem solver
by you...
i can handle myself just fine
i think...i am independent and i wish to stay like that
i just wish you don't forget me