kenyataan perasaan

haha...macam bangang je tajuk post ni

just nak share some thought of mine

masa trip ke Ho Chi Minh tu...

setiap malam kot...pergi night market sana

seyesly sangat penat...lagi-lagi bila melayan kerenah mumy yang suke menawar harga barang

in the end...kepenatan, kelaparan and sluggish

aku ajak acap (adik) duk kat tepi jalan tu

"biarkan aje mumy di kedai-kedai itu...hehe"

but then...a Vietnamese caught our attention

of course sebab dia rambut panjang...menarik perhatian aku itu, haha^^

sekali dia buka meja...susun-susun barang

then, people came towards him

curiosity got me...wondering why

ajak acap sekali tengok dia buat ape...

rupenye...dia ni penulis kaligrafi jalanan

and tulisan Vietnam ni sangat unique in such their own way

even orang local dia pon tak semua reti baca 

sangat besar kan berus dia...haha^^

inilah hasilnya...yang kelakarnya...
kelakar ke??  hehe...^^

bila dah siap kaligrafi ni...laki Vietnamese ni leh bangun

and bagi kaligrafi ni kat aku

dia cakap..."this is for you"

then dia cakap bahasa Vietnam...yang langsung aku tak paham pape

sambil tunjuk kertas ni kat aku 

and again...curiosity got me

aku cari orang Vietnam yang boleh cakap Melayu

minta dia translatekan ape yang laki rambut panjang tu tulis untuk aku

dia pon tak reti baca tulisan kaligrafi Vietnam....

 dia datang kat laki rambut panjang tu....bincang-bincang....=p

pastu dia cakap maksud tulisan ni

"Hati yang kosong, sedang mencari ketenangan yang jauh merentasi lautan".

at this point...rasa nak gelak pon ada

nak nangis pon ada

just imagine...i live 24 years

not once in my life...jumpa laki rambut panjang ni

we live in different country, different religious, different culture

we can't even communicate

but he knows exactly how i felt all this time

yang acap lak...leh lak tanya

"kak lang...hati kau kosong ke?? kenapa??"

haha...rasa nak lempang je dia time tu

funny...ada je kawan depan mata

tapi suddenly rasa tak reti nak cite problems kat dorang

bukan tak nak cite

dorang pon ada masalah masing-masing kan?

tak kan nak serabut dorang lagi ngan masalah aku

lagipon...not everyone really listen to what i'm saying

everytime nak cite...dorang mesti cite dulu

and i'm there to listen and expect to be helping out them
lagipon...rasa sangat malas nak bercerita
rasa sangat malas nak mengadu

rasa stress sangat-sangat
i felt like i'm getting worse
because i reached a point where i don't want to meet anyone
haha^^
pagi...duduk je rumah sebab housemates semua tak ada
then, malam...housemates balik...baru aku gi lab
haha...rasa sangat teruk kot
i keep myself SOCIALLY WITHDRAWAL
SOCIALLY ISOLATED
SOCIALLY ALIENATED
haha...but, don't worry
this is only temporarily
i hope so...0_o

gajah buatan Vietnam...hehe^^

i don't know why...
people always leave me behind
forgetting me
let it be my family, bestfriend and once my love
i don't expect to be love
to be care
to be adore
to be cherish
to be a cry shoulder
to be problem solver
by you...
i can handle myself just fine
i think...i am independent and i wish to stay like that
i just wish you don't forget me